Popular American singer Jidenna has shed some light into his past life in an interview, he spoke of how he manipulated the women he was in romantic relationships with in his past, and he feels ashamed of it.
Speaking as a guest on “What’s Underneath: Masculinity” podcast by Man Enough. The outlet published the 23-minute episode Where he spoke extensively and revealed the measures he has put in place to be a better man in the future and treat women better.
According to reports from The shade room, He told the outlet he “used to lie for sport just cause it was fun,” adding that he didn’t realize he “just enjoyed manipulation.” The artist admitted to formerly being “an excellent manipulator” and not understanding “how to relate to women in a way that wasn’t explorative.”
“You know, I remember different quotes I said. Just like really manipulative things to say like, ‘No one’s going to love you the way I do.’ My god, how could I do that to Black women? I’m ashamed of it, and that’s what makes me angry when I see my brothers do that. I understand it, but I can’t have that anymore. We can’t do that to the women that have done so much for us to even exist.”
He spoke on the trainings he underwent, learning how to manipulate women, including one instance where he pretended to cry to see a woman’s reaction.
“I robbed some women of their baby-making years. Dragging them along. They build me up. Look at me now, and look at them. If you were a creative, I folded you into my artwork. If you were in my artwork, I gave you a job,” Jidenna said, describing past behavior. “I mastered your life, I gave you a house, food. Everything you needed. I protected and provided for you. I did what men are supposed to do.”
“And I saw myself for the first time. All the things I’m saying now, whew, horror!”
Bit by bit, I stripped myself of my former self. And I swore that the next relationship that I would get in, I would work as hard at love as I worked in my career.”
“I’m thinking about every moment, and I’m replaying it a lot,” he said. “I’m a little neurotic with it, and she tells me and reminds me. But that’s what you do in business, that’s what you do as an athlete. They have press conferences every day…so every night, I have my own little press conference, ‘What did you do today? Whatever ‘do better’ is, what does that look like tomorrow?”
